The wanderer's life

Today, after breakfast I went for a walk to Getxo, where I have to cross the river to get there. It's been so long time since the last time I went there with my parents (so it may have been more than a month), because I was bit busy owing to the tests, the other studies and some works that I had to finish. 

Anyway, it started as usual. Every Sunday I wake up about 9 or 10, then have lite breakfast watching 'Man vs Wild' which is one of my favourite TV show, and take a shower, change clothes to go for walk. As I had spent all day at home on Saturday, I was itching all over. 

It seemed long way to arrive til Getxo and cost me a lot, because I hadn't done enough exercise in these days, besides as I gained more weight (due to my laziness) every footstep I walked made me feel as if I was an elephant. There were many people with their family, even with their dogs, and I was almost the only one who was walking down the road alone. When I got the bench where I usually take a rest during the walk, I took out the book 'Alchemist' and started to read it. On the book, when the boy decided to be a shepherd, a question came into my head. Why on earth I decided to travel abroad? Why I left my country and how I got to here in Bilbao? 

Maybe I couldn't have found the real aim for my life in Korea even though there were a lot of people who were satisfied with what they had, and traveling seemed like the only possibility of having a dream come true that make my life more interesting. I was also sick and tired of the daily routine, although there was every likelihood that I could keep that boring life until I die. I was desirous of making myself more independent, wanted to know the significance of my existence as human being, and may have wanted to meet someone important for my life by a chance encounter (even though it's the hardest part that I can believe now).

However, being apart from my family, old friends, band, my sweetest cats and all my routine wasn't as easy as I had thought. It made me stronger and even a bit dull, so now I am. But in the beginning, when I faced a problem I just left the city where I was, heading to a new place. I thought, 'Who cares, I just not belong here. I'll find somewhere I can stay long'. Now I realize it's just a bad habit and I was so capricious. But there was also a good side, I could have got rid of all the fears that I had had against some big changes in life. 

Now I'm highly likely to discover my own ways to make my life work. It doesn't matter if they treat me just as foreigner because I really am, if I don't make something through as I planned before because it usually happens and nobody can always end in success. I won't be stressed anymore by those stupid things. The one who is not afraid of failure, can achieve the real success. 

The New Beginning

The vacation has gone, then the new life has started. Every time when I toe the line I make some plan to achieve, and my plans for this season is:

1. To get CAE (Certificate in Advanced English) in December

2. To raise my German level up to the level B1 (now I got A1)

3. To Recover my Japanese level as before (level B1)

4. To complete my Spanish level as NATIVE speakers (level C2)

5. To participate in internship in Hotel NH Villa de Bilbao

Then, for number 6, there are the plan A and plan B.

Plan A : Making a contract with the hotel NH where I (will) get the internship, then staying in Bilbao.

Plan B : Getting a Working Holiday Visa for Germany then searching a job in Munich.

I think I'll manage to accomplish one of these goals I made, whatever I'll do it will be so- nice. Finally I'm going to finish the study then will get a job what I want. Of course I don't think it will be easy, owing to the time of visa processing. Once I apply for a visa whether it's for study or for work, it takes decades to issue it. I renewed my student visa last month, more precisely, on August 25, then they made me to come back on September 5, which was the expiration date for the visa. Anyway, I'm still waiting for a letter which I have to bring to the INS, and nobody knows when it will be arrived, how long it takes for me to make it through.

By the way, I'm so concentrating on studying in these days. I'm spending most of the time studying. It had never happened in my 25-year-life, and my mother is so happy for that because she'd never seen me study before. Being 3 weeks with my parents in Spain (and a week in Switzerland) I felt something very important, which was, it's time to be more responsible for my life, and also for my family. I can't live always like this, someday I'll have to settle in a place, with right job, with or without my own family. And for that I need to try hard and hard because I'm on the way which I have nobody who can lead the way. I'm the only one who know the way to the end, and as we know it's not a easy thing. 

Some people say, when you choose one, you have to give up the other one. I'm partly agree with this, but in my opinion there is a way that you can satisfy both of them, and I believe it. (of course on the other side, there is also a way that you can lose both of them...) I already want to complete the study!